Saturday nights used to be for drinking, making bad decisions, and eating burritos at 4am. Lately Saturday nights have been for Netflix, sleeping early, and working at 4am. The only drinks happening are the coffees I serve at work. This is my new normal. This is life as a spinster in training.
I found myself scrolling through Facebook tonight. I saw the typical engagement video, newborn photos, etc. I am bombarded with every sort of social norm daily. While everyone is getting hitched and procreating, here I am eating cereal for dinner and watching anime. Don’t feel sorry for me…I don’t feel sorry for me. I live my life how I want to. I sincerely loathe when people ask when I’m going to get married or have babies. I’m sorry…but why do you care? How do my life choices concern you? We are not all on the same life plan. Some get married young. Some get married well into their 40s. Some get married multiple times. Some never get married. Some have four kids. Some never have kids. We are all different and we all have different goals in life. So why then must we conform to society’s social constructs?
I don’t know if I will ever get married. I hope to…it’s something I envision for myself. For the most part I don’t mind being single. I think it is what I need at this time in my life. Love from a man is not the only love needed in this life. I don’t depend on that specific love for my entire existence. I witness love every day. I feel love every day. I AM LOVE.